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[05 Oct 2008|01:38pm] |
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if we keep on holding on to our past, the future never really has space to come in. (;
and talk about moving on and letting go.
ill be moving on. haha. i wont be blogging here anymore (; sorry if ive been linked up to your blog and that you have to change my address love you lot lot many many. :D
SO, IT WILL BE AT : beautyandashes.wordpress.com
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| "these words are from my heart" |
[02 Oct 2008|10:16am] |
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really speedy recovery :D
im already up and walking! can even go shopping, cut hair, dinnering, lunching, picking dusty up blah blah. but i tried jumping and swinging but still fail! ); still need to sit straight on the chair and not bend the upper shoulder part ~!@#$%^&*()_+ );
im really looking forward to cell tonight, and im really glad im feeling this way (; like what celia said carol said, "God has no measurement of time". its okay janis its okay! youll get there on day someday. ive learnt really - everything i do, i want to be genuine, i dont want it to be out of a duty or someone to ask me to do it. (; and ill do it dilligently that what i caught from celia. (;
im so proud of celia, so proud of weewee, so proud of andrew, so proud of rena, so proud of alex, so proud of tiffany, so proud of lester and cayling, so proud of all of them (;
MY CAMBODIAN PHOTO ALBUM IS COMING UP! SOO EGGCITED.
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[29 Sep 2008|09:49am] |
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on saturday was american school invitation cup, its been quite sometime since i last played this much and long and i have not been exercising alot except for 2 rp trngs and 1 shs alumni trng.
i sprained my back, that was what i thought happened to me, i decided to forgo the last game and headed down for service instead. the pain just got worse.. mom sprained her back a month ago so i used her cream to apply on my upper back but it seemed like it didnt go away. and last night was the worse, the sharp pain came at my right shoulder blade ); i woke up like 123456789 times, and i couldnt stop myself from tearing. ): im gg to the doctors later, i dont think its an ordinary sprain, but a dislocation or sth else thats bad );
at the back of my mind was, i have a meeting to hold on monday which i am totally responsible and incharge for it. and i just went back for rp trngs and gotten back the feel of ball and my team. now not only i cant go for the meeting, i cant attend trng for this week and i guess for the weeks to come..
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what makes me sad.
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| coming.. (; |
[23 Sep 2008|10:01am] |
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hahaha, it was such a good conversation with lester over the phone just now (; friends like this keeps you going all the time.. and there came the issue on going for school of theology next year, its been in my heart, invisibly here and there. hurhur. its such a perfect timing after i graduate from RP in january, but.. ill be going to london in June next year which is more or less confirmed.. and its going to clash );
ive been really blessed for the past week (; although sad things happened, but i seem to be able to pull through, with the help of God and the friends around me. i went back for volleyball training and the people are still very receiving of me, jiaolian still bothers about my soul hahaha. :/ i asked for a small blessing but i got it through a VERY BIG FORM. ( hurhurhur) thanks goonie for being there to listen to me and not judge me (; (; i went out with cell group to east coast after dinner on saturday, and a few of them were like "wah janis this is the first time youre joining us" and i had a very very happy time. stayed over at malvina's place which made us closer like secondary school time (; over the weekends, i went sentosa with Jo, Rina, Weixuan, Rena and myself. first time i actually asked rena to da fang w me like zzxzxomggxzxz. hahaha, i had alot of fun (; also, in the evening i went over to eujean's place to help paint the cell group room. yellow and green! im very honoured to be able to play a part in this painting scene. (;
until the weekends, i never realised how Melvin is, and what i have been missing out for the past one year for not attending cell group. i really want to go for cell group.. but trainings on thurdays ); i hope training day will change to wednesday, miracle come.. miracle come.. both are equally as important to me but for trainings ill have it like another 3 more months only. i hope training days will change!
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[17 Sep 2008|05:16pm] |
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zzzomg this is harder than i thought it would be, somebody just stab me please
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[16 Sep 2008|02:30pm] |
“I didn't ask for it to be over. But then again I didn't ask for it to begin. For that's the way it is with life, as some of the most beautiful days come completely by chance. But even the most beautiful days eventually have their sunset”
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[16 Sep 2008|10:35am] |
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i swear im having tummy bad, and after being garang and trying out all the roadside food in CAMBODIA i didnt get tummy ache at all. now that im back in singapore for a month im having tummy bad from singapore's food zzzzomg am i sensitive to good food haha.
thanks sii (; anyway, ive been making plans for 2009, i think i need a plan as to what i need to do after january 24th! (thats when i graduate btw)
when i graduate..
- celebrate chinese new year
- send out resumes for pet shops or the zoos AND WORK
- spend 21st in Bali
- go London for a month to visit auntie sam ling
- play volleyball for tampines GRC hehehe.
- if sister goes japan to work, ill spend 2 months with her just doing nothing reading books and making friends
and comes 2010,
- i hope to start school in new zealand, febuary and i guess il prolly be there for a good 5 years and if i do love it there with auntie jessica, here comes mom and pop (;
- and go for nepal expedition w meng!
ive been thinking,
i dont want to be attached in singapore i dont want anybody to make me feel i shouldnt go overseas for a trip, long term or maybe even migrate over. and i dont want to feel obligated just because i have a commitment here. i guess thats the reason why you see janis still being single. guess its, i dont want to fall for anybody now. i love my friends and you and thats the only reason why i want to go back to singapore once a year to look at them.
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| voda,vovo,dusty |
[12 Sep 2008|08:54am] |
what a night!
bie called, to say Vovo her rabbit died ); i was quite sad tho, considering dusty and vovo are around the same age, and yes same colour too! white and brown, just that dusty looks, dustier. i reached home, picked dusty up and she being miss grumps making tt grr grr sound, i told her "vovo die already leh dusty" she kept quiet tt instant. i guess, she somehow knows it la. idk what ill do if dusty dies ); i think ill cremate her (160bucks) and cry for a week );
around 1130, vien fetched me and 3 of us headed for punggol beach to burry vovo, i attended the crematorium ceremony if you wld call it tt way. rest in peace vovo, i rmb you being all small and jumpy. anyway, glad i cld be thr too.
oh ya, punggol beach is apparently some world war II kill site okaay. goodness.
what a morning!
i took 85 - 858 - 169 lol. and still reached school at 8, is that early or early and some people just dont respect people, do they? goodness. shes not gg to soil my friday. sheesh. no wonder everyones leaving. :x
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| cambodia 13days |
[09 Sep 2008|03:16pm] |
     
  
  
 
  
  
 
these are some photos which i took during the cambodia trip i went for service learning plus final year project (; great fun great memories, enjoyed every bit of it except the heat rash (;
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[04 Sep 2008|02:14pm] |
ill be gg to malaysia, kuantan over the weekends, tmr 6am - sunday 11pm with charbobo caylin! im really excited and so not-for-school-mood. bluek.
when i come back... theres blardy fyp, oh ya work w bie at mac call centre, volleyball trainings which ill be going for and more secret trainings for 2on2 :x
till then, be good everyone while i take my last trip before i kick off the last semester of my poly life gulps.
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| thats nice to know |
[02 Sep 2008|09:33am] |
im really flattered and encouraged. my photo was up on facebook and there was a person who commented on my photo when i was in cambodia with my sturdy canon ixus 75 haha.
 and this was what he said, Mark Isaiah,
It is really genius of yinqi, the photographer to make use of the reflections on the beach and well if the exposure goes down a lil and slower shutter spd, might have created a much vivid and well lit effect. whereby the people in the waters are a lil more visible.
Commented by: Lushphotog
Visit: http://www.flickr.com/photos/lushphotog
and here i am thinking.... exposure goes down???? slower shutter speed??? all these photography terms really not my cup of tea. there was this once i wanted to learn all the stuff like how to use the proper cam with all the extra stuff and all but i guess for myself i still prefer the raw in them. haha, im just contented with my albums haha. (;
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| orh-kun.... |
[29 Aug 2008|09:04am] |
and after 12/13 days i am finally home, from cambodiaaa! (:
it was such a wonderful trip, really with alot of learnings and seeing and reflections and playing and resting. honestly, i think i went there on a holiday mood instead of a fyp-work mood that i get to enjoy and see more things then everyone else, it was quite an unknowingly thing but i guess it really is what type of mood you bring on a holiday. when i travel ad go overseas ill always be happy and the other things ill just have to let it wait. this was why i never got the chance to really think about volleyball or church itself.
but i do think about volleyball when i see those random shops hanging the ball outside or when two bamboo sticks and a rotten net set in the middle of no where and 6 a side people were playing with the worst conditions. i begun to think about volleyball and the team itself..
and i do think about church when i talk to xionghai and moxi on an individual basis, raymond was asking why theres quite a no of people who didnt like chc and all i find myself fending my church, the people and leader.
yet again, i have been exposed to a different country altogether with different set of thought and emotions and a different set of pictures i have now. (: cant wait to have it printed and shared to everyone. this, really is one of the best countries that i have visited apart from the heat rash that i have gotten altho i did not get a heat rash ever before in my whole life. haha, coming back to singapore is like WINTER seriously. the food was great, the clubbing was great, the company was great, the cambodians were great, the shopping was great, the sky was great and the friends was great (:
idk what to do now, whether i should continue w my team, or not. during the last day of reflections when everyone was emotional and shared their thoughts i begun to think about this too in a way, that i should just finish this 5months even though im gg to be so demoralised. coming back, i realised i missed and loved so many people, lester and caylin, debbie and sihui, malvina and juliana, weewee and celia, van herself, that i just want to meet up with them. plus theres fyp2 that is coming my way. theres so much i want to do for my last semester here in rp, just be close to my rp friends before i graduate, and how ive quite gone away from them so much in a last year or so. i do think about my USUAL GANG alot and how i want to go out with them so often, plus the dinner w chick,naz and bear is also so far away. how i used to go ikea all w yuehui or even just meals w the rest like kelye,jess,moxi, sal, and rest. i have been committing my entire poly life to volleyball ig for 2.5 years straight, and now i left one more semester already. its not like i have sihui or mel or rena with me now to finish this with, now i am finishing this myself, junes heart is not thr anymore and rui is well captain and i cant possibly be relying on her for a long time right? theres still so much more glory and hope for the year 1s and 2s, i dont want to be the last person to weigh everyone down. pwah. i hate this feeling. what should i do?
could you please tell me?
having spent 12days and 12nights with bear and moxi really made me miss my usual gang ); and the new friendships made w raymond made me realise how much people who has crossed my paths ive missed to entend my hand. and the very day when i went clubbing at temple club with some of the party people in the trip made me realised of all the fun ive been missing out in life. hahaha, i never enjoyed clubbing so much until that day, just being crazy w people i barely knew.
there is just so much to learn from visiting cambodia and strongly agree that everyone should visit that beautiful place (:
sorry for the outpour of wordings, hahaha idk whats wrong w the pictures uploading thing, another time (;
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[17 Aug 2008|12:28am] |
hahaha i seriously feel that im going for a 3 years course instead of a 2 weeks project trip okay hahah.
firstly, thanks n182 for being such wonderful people. hahaha, really touching i got dettol hand wipes and face cleansing wipes, mints and toblerones to accompany me on the trip. (: and also, for the shirt for the still-thinking-of-you-present (; (; i better start doing something here..
secondly, sii youre a very strong girl and you must remember that okay? each time youll just get stronger and greater to fend the storms in your life. ill be praying that youll be happy, everyday. (: and im always always here.. youre DJS leh (;
thirdly, bie yourve sacrificed the most for the team.. about your injury, rest well and hard alright? youve given your best and you could give not anymore already. ill visit you and you HEALED knee when i come back ok? (;
fourthly, dear van wee red baby! what happen to you ); come back come back! youre really greater than you think you are you know? hugs
fifthly, wee wee neo part time. thanks for dinner tt day i hope you like the little gift i gave to you (; its really sooo nice having to catch up and talk. everytime i talk to you, u inspire me and encourage me in church. thank you for that revelation on the train, ive been thinking about it hard, "the star thrower". and also. please make some movements huh, i hope to receive a progress report from you after two weeks hah! dont procrastinate alr la u. haha
sixthly, saint hildas alumni, done well (; jiayou for this round! im more than blessed to have once played with you all again :D
seventhly, celia thanks for the hug today, its been so long already. we'll hang out tog w wee one day :D
eightly, SISTER LEONG, im going to miss you okay, help me to record volleyball finals and the 9 oclock show please hahahaha and do talk to dusty once in a while! i love you!
lastly, rena sim! my favourite person on earth hahaha. aiya i shall cut the mushyness here okay hurhur. anw, please rmb to think of hammies name when i get back. and the NIKE RUN 10km on sunday omg thinking of it makes me zzz. hahaha. aiaizainaliiii
okydoks toodles and hello cambodiaah :D
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[15 Aug 2008|10:21am] |
i just got a message from my fyp teamie
"packing: do warn your team about thunderstorms exp in Camodia nxt wk. ang 27 deg"
and here am i thinking,
thunderstorms? how am i supposed to prepare for thunderstoms? except from ponchooooo(idk how to spell) haha.
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[15 Aug 2008|12:04am] |
a. i went out w aiai ystd, wanted to eat fish and co but lunch promo only at certain outlets so gah, so went for pasta mania which was a LET DOWN, i dont like pasta mania anymore
b. we watched dark knight which was great, i know la quite slow and i bumped into jonathan(long thought) from shs after so long heh looking bulky yo. ya and movie was great like i mentioned esp the ship part? when the criminal threw the remote out of the ship (: lifes lesson 101.
c. shsa won A hougang, if theyre gg to win tmrs game means theyll be top 6 already! cooler, i guess thats the difference w a team that prays before their matches (:
d. did scorer today w mai from np, shes really nice! not the typical i-am-a-good-player kind of air around her, haha i told her shes like a cockroach cannot kill one! she said "wah you call me animal". is cockroach and animal :S i hope not. AND, she nvr do lib ctrl sheet can, got more zai anot haha.
e. im feeling sad that im going Cambodia on sunday, but yet excited also i mean its gg away leh. but im gg to miss my bed, my FURBALL and my dusty! );
f. i feel like eating the caramel corn that is on my table, but it is for rena and she just refuses to eat it during the movie lol
g. im so unmotivated to go exercise seriously, like nothing to exercise for that kind of feeling and i got a feeling i know how im gg to look like after i graduate from rp lol
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| my first dive |
[12 Aug 2008|08:56am] |
was so inspired by tao li hahaha, im proud of her you know! really! :D i thought about the "idols" i used to look up to and be so inspired haha but think theyve gotten their medals and achievements already hurhur.
 Susie O'neil  Yana Klochkova  Micheal Klim  Ian Thorpe  and our own tao li hahahaha |
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[10 Aug 2008|09:07pm] |
todays game was w HEW rockets, quite a smooth game. just pretty fascinated by the seats hahaha, like those swimming pool kind of seats okay. hahaha.
it was a very nice day today (:
during the third set bie said this to me, "ah leong gan gan sha, i behind you. hui bao hu ni de" omg! i immediately feel like hugging her okay, hahaha first time someone actually said that to me unplanned, i felt so motivated + encouraged (: and thats when i was not kan cheong already. bie, if youre reading this, thank you so much (: HUGS.
everyone, was so encouraging.
spent literally almost the entire day w her, walk here walk thr, change court here thr, bubble tea, mac and shitting.. (: it was happy debbie day today.
oh ya and did i mentioned i bumped into malvina tan out of NO WHERE. hahahhaa it was hilarious, and laughing like mad dogs in the middle of the road bwhaha.
im so proud of myself, ive been gg zai for two consecutive sundays :D
im going to cambodia next sunday already, so fast!
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[08 Aug 2008|09:09am] |
its going to be a long one.
ive been missing school for two days in a row already, i think RP is going to send me the "missing" letter, i wonder if other polys do practice this system. HMM.
i went for trng at shs ystd, after almost about one month since i last played indoor volleyball. it felt quite strange wearing the shoes and warming up :S quite scary actually haha. tiff, vien, jelly, carol, bie, yan and sii was thr, i dafang-ed w sii after SO LONG. it was hilarious as usual, the ones i get for 2 consecutive years when she was still in rp (; aiya, i also dont know how to describe ystd's trng, it was good la, sir is so different from jiaolian. he trust his players and he is happy when u do well like, sincerely. and the people who plays the other 5 whos in the court, they know u do well and they are really happy because its like a big happy family. whereas in rp sometimes the feeling you get is that when u do well people are there congratulating you but at the back of their heads theyll be like "oh shit". not all of course, just some. i realised even the first two years in rp when im w sii, ive been very intimidated by some players in the team cause they throw their weight around and think everything has to go their way. we had serve receive ystd, which i obviously didnt need to receive and was obviously kan cheong as usual, but things seemed to get better a little while later. like you know, like what bie msged me, everyone loves you and not evil people. im more than blessed (:
okay, the reasons why people let go of friendships or relationships is simply because there is the lack of communication and genuine love. you cant expect a single person to approach 3 other people and get back the relationship but it is the 3 people to approach the 1 person. imagine if youre the one person? why the need to make things so difficult by drawing the line so clearly of we are not like before already. certainly things can never be the same as before cause some are working, some studying in uni, some studying in poly, some in ns and some slacking around but it irritates me to see why people need to draw the line so clearly. friendships for years, to let it go just like that, isnt really worth it unless theyve bitched and killed your ego. which seldom happens, right? haiya, i also dont know what to say already like what they say, friendships carved out from your secondary school stays for a long long time. but surely, there are exceptional cases unless you believe in them.
and tonight! its pastries night at the airport 10pm t3 curry boy and bobocharchar time!
and i thought about cecilia..
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| please dont give her anymore of your doings |
[05 Aug 2008|09:36am] |
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ive been hearing things and seeing things with my own eyes.
and although im quite glad im not in this mess now and breaking till september, im quite sad of how things or people have become based on the influence of others.
when the nice, became well.... like the old one. nahh think i shall not name names. just been thinking quite abit these few days.
tonights is mal's art show at dempsy quite lookg fwd to it (;
a SVRVSV night out, been a while already.
and fyp2 is taking over my life.
www.html.signic.domain.url.analytics.google.~!@#$%^&*()_ what not.
//OH YES, and dear diem - jiayou (: wait for meeee!
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